March 28, 2013

Mimetic Jesus

Let me not only imitate you
O foot washing Lord
who genuflects before me
O faithful friend
to the end and the end after that
O brother in flesh and spirit
who will not abandon me

Let me also desire what you desire
give me the heart that is your heart
let me love what you love
the servant mind and hand and muscle
who washes another’s worn out sole
the faithful companion
who walks beyond the end of the clear-cut path
the brother in arms
of brother or sister or stranger
who will not let go
will not let go
will not let go

March 27, 2013

Living Jesus

O Dead Jesus,
we remember the one day we had
two at best, to walk away in sadness
yes, but also in unshackled freedom,
free from your hard way,
free to live for ourselves only
free to walk utterly alone and in illusory control
making our way down the freeway
driving ourselves and each other crazy
crumpling and bursting into flames in the guardrail
but at least we weren’t following your road
the way of crosses and costly love 
and bodies spent

O Living Jesus
you are the next day of this crashed life
when we can no longer live
our lazy daydream life in and of and for ourselves
now we who follow you our brother and friend,
eating broken-body-bread and bloodshed-wine
living in the ethereal Spirit of your haunting presence
now we find ourselves unexpectedly
mysteriously , resistantly, and joyfully
living Jesus as our new selves-in-action
out of control in loving and giving and praising
and out of our minds in following you
where ever your next crazy offering
of yourself-in-us may be

March 22, 2013

Palm or Passion, Wave or Particle

They say in quantum physics that a particle
is a wave and a wave a particle
and it all depends on how you look and when
but if you don’t look for the answer,
if you let paradox be and mystery win
it is both at the same time all at once

Jesus and his little royal palm parade
with branches waving and people shouting
everyone focuses their eyes and minds
like electron microscopes to see it
but looking there and then means
you only see the particle of fabricated greatness
but look another way and see the wave of humility
the ripple fall from the temporal throne,
the tsunami cross, the end that begins everything

I suppose the trick is not to look at all
but let it be and he will both ride to glory
and die in abject misery,
and one will be the other all at the same time
the cat will be dead and alive in the dark box
and you’ll have to live in this puzzlement
and be both dead and alive yourself

March 13, 2013


Six days before the Passover Jesus came to Bethany, the home of Lazarus, whom he had raised from the dead.  There they gave a dinner for him. Martha served, and Lazarus was one of those at the table with him.  Mary took a pound of costly perfume made of pure nard, anointed Jesus' feet, and wiped them with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.  But Judas Iscariot, one of his disciples (the one who was about to betray him), said,  Why was this perfume not sold for three hundred denarii and the money given to the poor?  (He said this not because he cared about the poor, but because he was a thief; he kept the common purse and used to steal what was put into it.)  Jesus said, "Leave her alone. She bought it so that she might keep it for the day of my burial.  You always have the poor with you, but you do not always have me."
- John 12:1-8 

from Wikipedia:

Spikenard (Nardostachys jatamansi)
also called nard, nardin, and muskroot
is a flowering plant of the Valerian family
that grows in the Himalayas of Nepal, China, and India.

The plant grows to about 1 m in height
and has pink, bell-shaped flowers.
It is found in the altitude
of about 3000–5000 meters.

Spikenard rhizomes
(underground stems)
can be
and distilled
into an intensely aromatic
amber-colored essential oil,
which is very thick in consistency.

Nard oil is used as a perfume,
an incense, a sedative,
and an herbal medicine said to fight
insomnia, birth difficulties,
and other minor ailments.

The scent of spikenard attracts cats,
a strange phenomenon in itself

from the New Testament:

An anointing oil used
to prepare Jesus’ body
by a woman who perfumed him
with expense and honor

the cause of men’s grousing
about waste and the poor
and turning the mind away
from the obvious costly outpouring and

medicine so their other ailments
might find healing
and they might be as cats to nard
attracted to an intensely aromatic God

a strange  phenomenon in itself